well back to singapore- and whilst i do enjoy blow drying my hair with air conditioning, which prevents the necessity of yet another shower after drying my hair- i again find myself sleeping on a mattress on the floor! haha how did it come to this? i am supposed to come home to luxury and proper bedding! ;) well this year our apartment is smaller, but really nice, so al and i are sharing my dad's office so we have a mattress on the floor that covers the entire area of space, so our suitcases are loaded up onto desks. during the day we push the matress up on its side- i imagine this would be like what living in new york would be like!
being home is always really nice and although the first night i thought i was going to go insane because i was missing bali so much, i realized that nothing will be different when i go back and it will all be ready and waiting....well the people will change as they always do but everything else will still be there!
i have been thinking a lot too about how fast this year has gone for me. the last couple of days have brought some hard news to several different people i know and love and i have to say that come the holidays i already am feeling sentimental, but when things like this happen, it makes me even more refelctive. things can change in an instant- sometimes you can be the one to change your own life and other times it changes without your control. for me, i had a little of both this past year and i have to say that i got through some of the hardest times , personally, and i thank myself every single day for making those changes because i can feel it radiating through me. its an awe insipring thing to feel positively sure that you made the right decision, especially when it came down to such difficult measures. but as i think back on the things i went through this year i can truly agree that wont kill you makes you stronger. its been a really weird one for me, but one that has shown me that life is what you make of it and everyday i am appreciative of the gifts i have been given, as well as the opporunities that i being presented. i am incredibly thankful to have the amazing family that i do- i have seen some things this year that make me realize how important family is, and i feel lucky to be blessed with a close relationship to everyone in my own and to know that no matter how hard you fall, family can always help you get back up again.
my new years resolution this year is simply going to be that i enjoy every day as it is- that i take advantage of ooportunities, take chances, and never forget to stop and just appreciate. because you never know when something will change your life, whether its by your hand or that of fate, and in the meantime all we can do is try to be humbled by every day that goes by that we are still here. i know its sounds super cheesy and pretty typical, but i have never been one for resolutoins because i always pick something unrealizitic and get bored with trying. but i feel like this is just going to be part of my life now, and that i wake up everyday and think that im living a dream of sorts- my dream- and i want to realize and be thankful for that every day. a year ago i would dream about one day what it i just picked up and left- moved to bali. started over. i never thought that within months things would start to move in that direction . i have incredible friends and an amazing family to thank for helping me through this year and i can only hope that next year brings as much fortune to as all:)
Sunday, December 21, 2008
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A wonderful message, Kae, thank you. Living each moment with grace and gratitude is just about all we can hope for. Looking forward to hearing about your adventures in Aussie, LA and Whistler!
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