daily reflections:)

so now that i have some pics to break up the blah-blahing that i have been doing i think i can write more mindless chatter:)
i have been thinking- its true what they say- when you hit rock bottom there is nowhere to go but up! its strange though because you dont really feel it happening until all of a sudden you realize that the pain and confusion that have been manisfesting no longer feel so powerful. i feel very at peace right now- i feel it physically even. i didnt force it, but tried to let the wounds heal themselves and i honestly feel like everything i went through in the last month or so was not in vain. and to all of those amazing people in my life who helped me through it, well i think about you everyday and how grateful i am to have such support in my life:)

so something i have learned- peace can come when you have the least to show for it... i dont have a job ( am looking and will update later on that front:) i dont have a boyfriend, i barely have a house, barely have any money and yet everyday i feel more myself then i have in a very long time.

yesterday we went to the tattoo place and looked for something but they didnt really have what i picured, and the tattoo artist was not there so i made an appointment for today ( dont worry shar and steve- they showed me around the studio and all the needles are new and in packages, in a sterilizing unit and then they are sterilized again:) so i spent some time online and found a bunch of ideas to show the artist today at four!

as for the jobs- i have received responses from one shade-box.....he has kinda been stalking me via gmail, gchat, skype and skype chat-- needs a personal assistant for his company which tries to get people/companies to change over from chlorine to a more natural , environmentally friendly substance in their pools....idk he is getting back to bali on the 17th so we will see!

i also emailed the international school here and just said i know it says you are not looking but if you have anything just let me know and they wrote me back saying they would pass my CV onto the headmaster for consideration to be a sub which would be greaat!

i also have an appt on monday morning with a recruting company for expats, they had a lot of hotel jobs available so i wanted to scope that out too! oh and i got a list of playgroups and kindergartens that i want to visit and see if they need help too!