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it seems there are more and more things that i am being asked " not to blog" about so now im struggling to find interesting stories to tell! haha lots of weird business went on this weekend that i cannot discuss on this forum ....

lets just say the energy or 'vibe' of the little group we have assembled here is crackling with juiciness!!!

i dont have any new info to share other then that, however, i do have to say that this weekend i really decided that i love my life here. while everyday i miss people who i no longer have with me, i am incredibly happy here and i love where i am. i love that i get to tell people i am a writer when the questions 'what do you do?' comes up and for the first time ever i get to say something back that i am proud of! its actually interesting:) i love meeting so many new people- every day or night we encounter new people and have new experiences. while it must sound like we arent doing a whole lot, to me it is what i was looking for and i feel content right now. its not a vacation for us over here, its life, it just happens to be a spectacularly easy going one:) i realized something this weekend while helping deal with some of the 'things' that happened, and that is for the first time, like ever, (haha) i am not involved in any drama. i have tied up my loose ends and am moving forward with things and that no longer scares me or makes me feel sad. there are things in your life that are not meant to be and the only way to truley live without regret is to accept and move on when you are given the chance. the changes may be subtle and its weird that it is true- one day you just wake up and the hurting and the confusion are gone. i dont feel lonely anymore, but rather excited to have so many opporunities to create new friendships and connect with people. one thing-- we have to find a new house!! while i love shitbox , the more friends we make, the more ridiculous it is to have them come to your house with a disclaimer -- pembantu room or bat cave??