so it has come to my attention that when you are away from the commercialization of holidays it is very easy to forget that they are upon us! halloween- well that came and went with barely any mention- we didnt even bother getting things together until 6 o clock the night of! when its not shoved in your face it is like every other day really....
in singapore the christmas decorations are already up. i was gaping open mouthed all the way down orchard that first morning- thinking what the hell have they got all this up for? then i realized its only about a month to christmas and i was hit by a wall of realization that i have NO idea where this year went! seems like it was just new years at nicks house playing beer pong and seeing fernando get smashed:)
so then with the realization that it is the 'holiday season' came the realization that this is the first christmas i have been single in a couple of years and well i kinda forgot how much that sucks!! for the rest of the year its pretty inconsequential- i am happy with my situation and really dont ever feel that lonely. but when it comes to this time of year, well it becomes downright depressing!! all these people out christmas shopping, couples on holidays, cuddling every where . blech. way to rub it in. all of a sudden you realize that being alone may be great most of the time but having someone at this particular time of year is almost worth being in a relationship- well- almost....maybe i should just try and find a 'christmas boyfriend' we will be together for the months of november until the end of january- just to get through all this crap without having to feel so monumentally sad that you have to drink hot chocolate alone while you do your shopping and fear that one day you will indeed be the living incarnation of bridget jones on christmas eve with the bottle of vodka singing celine dion in your footie pajamas!!!
note- for christmas this means i do NOT want any kind of pajamas- they will only further fuel the fear that my life is steadily heading into thirties alone-ness...bottles of vodka are always welcome:)
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dont forget that being away from the commercialization of the holidays and forgetting that they are upon us is a very good thing!
What's hilarious is that I think Bridget Jones had a bottle of red wine...not vodka...but I like the vodka idea much better. :)
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