is it worth it?

yesterday mel and linda and i were talking about whether or not it was really worth it to get close to someone you know will be leaving- i think i wrote something about it the other day and how i think it is worth the experience no matter what. but then when it happens i start to wonder- is it really better to have experienced something amazing only to lose it or is it better to leave it alone? mel and linda said they felt ambivalent towards doing it because what was the point? they didnt want to expend the energy when they knew in the end it would be fleeting. we debated it for a while, me defending it to the death-even resorting to the use of the new age hippie phrase of the month 'being present'. but then-the aftermath... its like a come down, i feel like im crashing from a hard night of partying- feel drained and a little empty really. i made an incredible friend this week and the time spent with him was absolutely incredible and i wouldnt want to say i would rather never have had it happen but now its so sad to have to think about what i wont have anymore. these last few days also have left me missing my friends back in california and longing to have more connections like the one i just made. but i guess if life is not made up of both bliss and loss then it would be pretty empty. how could you know how amazing something could be if you didnt know how much you would miss it when it was no longer there? to my friend i feel incredibly lucky to have met you.i hope we can continue our friendship becuase i dont know what life will be like without tangents and rants:) i will be forever infinitely jealous of those in your life who get to bask in your radiance on a daily basis. the golden sunsets will be a little less golden when not watched from the platform with you:)